31/8/19 ***Independence Day

This year's Independence Day means much to me.

I am finally free from a lifelong addiction from the 3 Cs.  I can't still shake off Nicorette though.  I guess it is a safer alternative than cigarette and dope.

I still crave for cunts.  The least I can do is meddle with Els.  She is operating from the child ego state.  That is the lure really.  I can play her like a fiddle.  Tha[t] goodness she is a Chubby Chubb.  Therefore I have the exclusivity without having to worry about the competition.

I intend to write her a short email but I have not  found the right angle yet.

What will be a good hook?  Do I spike her or do I tee her up?  She certainly need assurance from being experiencing hard love since childhood.

What role do I play?

Do I become a nurturing parent or do I become a jackass?  Do I stroke her ego and put her on the pedestal or do I break her down and build her up again?

I got a feeling that she had been playing her own little game on me.  With the pussies it's always Catch Me If You Can Game.

OK then I play the Psycho Analyst Game.  Nope, too intellectual.

The Nurturing Parent is the best bet.  After all she is a child.

Gosh, I could have sworn Sound Journey was tapping on what I write:

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While I am thinking about plundering the Walled City, I need to get back on track with my exercise routine.

The gout is gone now.  So does the ability to eat LCHF.  I got to reduce protein to reduce uric acid.   Which means I can no longer eat beef, mutton, lamb, seafood and anchovies.

I guess I do LCHF with chicken and egg.

I still intend to follow this protocol:

I don't exercise because I am happy.  I am happy because I exercise.

Gotta create momentum.   No more excuse.

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I found out that Els actually afraid I might dump her.  OK then, that is a plus point for me.  

So that is what the Never Enough is all about.  She needs assurance that I am still listening to her.  How about that?

This calls for a celebration.  Hahaha...  I did create an impact on the little girl.

It is easy then.  All I need to do is play with that Hot Button.

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