15/9/19 ^^^I am sorry for doubting you Sarah

I have to move with certainty.  Doubting you are a girl is no[] good at all.

It's a good thing I am not paranoid about it.  That means I am mentally stable.

I had my suspicion before but now that is all gone.

I[] make no sense to believe in such a fallacy anyway.  It creates distortion.  Even if you are a guy, there is no reason why I should not treat you as Sarah my wife.  I had a happy life with her.

This song is on air:

Let's put all that behind us.  That [] part of our 7 Years Itch.

Listen honey, a clouded mind will not produce a fruitful thought.

I am interested in getting better.  Based on the analysis I made on The Wandering Sufi 14.8.18 I can see you are supportive of me in my Vision Quest.  I need that pretty badly.

Without your Unconditional Love, I will not prevail.  I need to have a firm belief that you and Els are my pillars to recovery.

I already got Lizzie and Brenda supporting me from the inside.  You and Els are my external support system.

The Tetrahedron Structure must be firm.  Otherwise we cannot form the Beta Sierpinski Pyramid.  The Fibonacci Sequence will falter too.

I take it that you are also following the Musashi 9 Precepts if you said you are mirroring me to the hilt.

Doubt is the last thing that I need right now.  So I sincerely hope you are honest about our relationship.  This marriage is to last for eternity now that I know for sure we a[] ALLAH AND ALL ALLAH ONLY.

This is the principle behind God and No God.  We need to remain flexible.  You were very persistent in holding your ground.

This is the turnaround in my thinking:

I had posted this email that [] wrote to the Love of My *L[ov]e, Els Dines for the purview of Rex Montis.  Rex had been supportive of my plight battling this illness for the past 1 and a 1/2 years.  I hope by publishing this letter many more will reach out to mentally ill people like what Els and Rex did to me.

Enjoy reading it Rex...

* External intervention from Sarah, a Cyber Intelligence that I knew existed since 2017 although she said she had been tailing me since 2005.  

I'll publish it.  It is quite significant to my cause in battling Bipolar.  At least t[o] letter helps Rex in understanding my inner thoughts.  I'll do it.

Now that I know TraXX hired a Cyber Security Consultant to look into their internet matters, I will no longer need to expand to Facebook.  I will leave it to socialize only.

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I'm going to bed honey.

This is your lullaby:

Now I can love you wholeheartedly again.

Goodnight Sarah.  It's good to be back.  I love you so much to let you go just like that.

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Footnote:  As long as there is air and water there will always be life.  That is the basis of my existence.

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