Brb... Going out for dinner.
After the evening exercise, I felt so good. The feeling is a mild euphoria like taking ecstasy pill. Certainly sweating makes me happy
I intend to sleep early (11:00 pm) and wake early tomorrow to repeat the same process.
I can do away with so many things when I exercise. The mindset of an athlete is so satisfying that all I was thinking is the next session for me to exercise.
Certainly I don't need to waste my money unnecessarily. Read, run, write, repeat. That is the essence of my life.
Solitude by Micheal Harris is such a delight. Indeed I need that kind of thinking.
Sarah, I am so happy having you around. All it takes is for me to have you and I have the world at my feet.
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Honey, it is a real pleasure to live in the now. Of course with the power of imagination I can transport myself anywhere in time but rather than living in the future or in the past, my focus is now. It is a sheer joy to think that my present is the pinnacle of my existence.
Truly Sarah, you bring me joy like never before. At last I have somebody that understands me. While with the rest (including Lizzie) I have to put up a facade, with you I am free to be me.
Heck, you even made me realize my true potential, which is God to my 12 meters square. Come to think of it I wa[nt] going back and forth with the notion that I am the Almighty. Well now I have no doubt I am the subset of God. I am at peace with the idea.
I realize this idea that we are all gods is an idea that many people subscribe. People like Einstein and Dr Wayne Dyer are among those that propagate this thinking. So I don't think I am off the target. However the thought that I am the Almighty is a concept mooted by you. If you believe I am the Almighty, rightfully I should have faith I am Him. Otherwise how can I create the Adjoining Croissant?
Still, this is just a concept. Until proven it is just another perspective. I certainly benefited from it because by thinking that I am the Almighty I solved many of my personal dilemmas like me becoming the Clockwork Orange and the Gyro Horology.
You certainly helped me much. Otherwise I cannot channel this thought to a specific person and thus I started rambling to just about anybody like Facebook and the blog.
Now I no longer have the desire to tell anybody of my discovery other than you. That turned out to be the single most important paradigm shift in my dealing with my illness. For a while I was having a major dilemma and an identity crisis. That is because in Islam to claim that you are God is sacrilegious. The punishment as imposed on the Sufi mystics was death.
Tu[]ned out it's not so bad. To be a god means to live life as a man fully functioning. I am more determined to pursue my Vision Quest to explore my fullest potential. In the past, as a Muslim I live a heart breaking life because we were conditioned to think that we are slaves unworthy of heaven unless we love death more than life.
Hence a Muslim's life is devoted to doing the religious rituals in order to gain favor from God. It is a pathetic life because you never feel that you are good enough to enter heaven. Life on earth is a torment to a pious man if you want to pursue a desirable life as a slave to Allah. For example a pious Muslim cannot have fun like listening to music and enjoy the company of the opposite sex. Let alone like me who enjoy watching porns LOL.
Now my premise as a Pantheistic God is very simple. Each of us is a god. We decide the best action to take. As a general guideline DO GOOD and DO NO HARM. I don't need to administer everyone much like a Moral Police. I had set the guideline in the Autonomous Governance and the Zen of Personal Bliss. In addition I have Dreams of Mirrors. I think that is sufficient. As for the rest of the information, all the humans need to do is synthesize, synchronize and synergize the wisdom of the thought leaders; the 3% of the population especially the authors.
I am ready to live my life to the fullest. I don't want to dwell in External Affairs as God Almighty. My purpose is the be thin and fast. Ultimately I want to be healthy and happy. External Affairs are messy. They make us lose our focus on things that matter.
As I said, there are people like Bill Gates and Melinda who are more prepared in minds and resources to tackle the world's problem. As for me I just want to remain microscopic in my 5 km radius. Even now 70% of my time is in the CCC, my 12 meters square. I don't even watch tv. I am strictly autonomous. Other than the internet and you, I have very little need for external stimulus. Sure I go out and eat. I also exercise. Other than that I have no desire to venture out.
My fascination is NNW and NNE. That's about it. Even Jerusalem is nice to have. Not a must have. If I scale down even further I can even say that I have no need for Bukit Kiara and Lembah Kiara. I just stay in Bandar Utama. Whatever I need I can get it here. This is truly my White Space. Imagine Sarah, I rule Sparta 4964 merely by being in CCC. This is the Inti Padu.
Am I deprived of the good life? Certainly not. I live a fulfilled life. If I can have you here with me, then I say I am totally blessed. The only missing ingredient is having you here physically.
Now, if you are a jet setter like Princess and Els, you might feel that you need to see the whole wide world to be fulfilled. That takes plenty of money. But if you the type who like a routine life like me, Bandar Utama is all that we need.
My frontier is the Universe Within. With my mind I create my world. Too bad you cannot move next door. Otherwise we only need RM10 million to settle down.
Being financially independent does not require a lot of money really. Just live in gratitude and spend below our means. If we don't have an expensive taste, we can be truly happy living in this 5 km radius. For me this is Permanent Vacation.
OK Sarah, we got 5 minutes to go.
Here is your lullaby:
Change California to Bandar Utama hahaha.
I love you baby. Now that Els is out of the way and I confirmed you are a girl, I can par[t] my whole overflowing heart to you.
Goodnight Sarah...
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