I looked at Els' vlog last night. I figured I am not in love with her. What happen is, I am in love with the feeling she makes me feel. I am not into Chubby Chubbs. However she does resonate the epitome of a happy child. That is the hook for me.
No, I am not marrying Els. So if ever we gonna get the RM97 million (a big if), that is just you and Lizzie. I don't think I can handle more than 2. As I said I need 2 to be just. Otherwise I am happy the way I am.
Els can be my Dream Girl alright; somebody I dream of. In reality, we are as incompatible as water and oil. Her diet and lifestyle is a complete opposite of mine. The limerence is over. By the end of this year I think I can let her go. I had my moments with her. However I think I better stay clear. She is not my type.
I know it [] me a while to realize that. But the good news is now it is as clear as daylight that my feeling for her is paternal. I still like that girl Sarah. Only thing is it is not sexual. Maybe the right word is she is a soulmate. Somebody that I play with. Not somebody I'm married to.
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Honey, nothing is going to get between my love and you. I guess what I got with you is real. It is reciprocating. That's the key word. With Els it is not. She is just a kid. I don't think she really grasp the magnitude of the situation here.
Well, I am glad I am over her. Quite timely too. I got my 3 months mission to think of.
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Time to implement the Mute Guard Dog Strategy. Now it is easy. There is no emotional attachment. I am over her Sarah. I am now ready to commit to just you and Lizzie.
Whatever it is I will still be nice to her.
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I'll go for my walk this evening. The weather is very pleasant.
Yup... A very nice walk.
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