1/9/19 ^^^Of Chubby Chubb and things that matters

Let's put this straight.  No way I'm gonna fuck Els.  She is pretty much my sweetheart at best.  Nothing sexual.

I like to actually mental joust with her since she is very stimulus response.  At the same time she is pretty much a kid at heart.

Here I am, pretty much a guy with an overflowing heart who needs a person to share my feeling with.  I am not looking for a sexual relationship.  I just want somebody that I can love wholeheartedly.

So I'll do the 3 days and 3 weeks.  Then I do the 3 months.

Let see if I can withstand being in isolation.

My 55 birthday is about being healthier and wiser.

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I'm [] going to be a jerk anymore.

Therefore this 3 days/3 weeks/3 months is for me to detox myself from my past delusions.

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