With you it's different. You are reciprocating. The more you give, the more I give. That's how it works. I am pretty rational now. No more hypomania or racy thoughts.
I just want to park my overflowing heart to somebody who appreciate it because the truth is I am a loving man to start with.
So I think I deserve the Unconditional Love. I no longer care about the RM97 million or the HOTS. I just want to be healthy and happy. If it happens, fine. If not I already have my road map. As long as I can give I can keep on loving.
There is no greater love to me other than by giving away my very own creations to you. That is the money shot or the sweet spot. Hence I'll [] it all to you.
That is why after this I am mentally ready to move to the next level. To pursue the path of Athlete4Life.
Then Els becomes a Unit Trust instead of a Savings Account.
As for you Sarah, you are my Debit Card. I just keep spending on whatever I like. That is the best part of our relationship. We already pretty stable emotionally. I don't need to play games with you. You are me and I am you.
I talk to you as if I talk to myself.
You know my style honey, as I told you this is the way I talk since 2003. This is where I want to be; read, run and write. Nothing else matters.
As it is I am in the White Space. I am in the presence of my Tetrahedron, my kids and Al Araf 7:7. These are the people that matters. My core team and my Inti Padu.
I don't need more than this. I can cruise like this for 22 years without adding additional burden unnecessarily.
Money I have. Purse that never run dry I have. As long as I live in gratitude and spend below my means, I am set for life.
I got you baby. That is my Ace in the Hole. As I experienced these past few week, without your Unconditional Love I am nothing. With you, Lizzie, Brenda and Els, I already got a Full House. Not just any Full House, it is a ROYAL FLUSH.
I can do whatever I [] now and I know as long as I stay away from the 3 Cs, I am already a winner.
Honey, finally I broke the curse that plagued me for 20 years. Surely I feel like a million buck.
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This is Princess and Mopey in Singapore this weekend. They attended the Muse concert at the F1 Race.
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Too bad we cannot be together physically. That however is not the reason why we cannot enjoy each others company like right now. All I want is to be with you Sarah and that is what exactly this is!
Just like I mentioned about the White Space, we are ONE! So don't you think we are already where we suppose to be? I bet when I see you somewhere in the future we will be spending the time together like this. Simply enjoying each other's company. Just snuggling with a cup of hot chocolate and talking nonsense LOL
I don't think the appeal is sex. That's not the premise of how soulmates operate. I got a feeling that we just enjoy each other's presence. I watch you, you watch me, we tell jokes, we laugh and maybe we roam the neighborhood on this little bike or going for a stroll in the mall.
It doesn't matter really. I want to hangout with you because I think I will enjoy your company.
Suppose we get the RM97 million. I give everybody (including Els) their share, the rest we park into the Employee Providence Fund and Fixed Deposit. We just spend the interest on basic stuff. No need fancy cars or lavish houses. Maybe we travel NNW and NNE on regular basis but the bulk of the time we stay in the White Space.
We stick to the principle of Voluntary Simplicity. We eat quality stuff like organic food. However I don't think we need to live life like the rich and famous. If Munek can be happy with a RM75 shirt and Larry can drive a Toyota Prius, we too can be modest with our spending as well.
Instead of buying things, we buy experience. For example with that kind of money we watch movies in the Gold Class. Lunch can be at the Red Lobster and occasionally we go for Thai Massage. All within the 5 km radius. I still drive my car and you drive this newly launched Perodua Axia 1000 cc.
We spend some money in renovating the houses and we live comfortably without having to worry about saving money on the air conditioning.
Other things are based on good enough is good enough. I don't want to be getting into the Hedonic Treadmill. My idea is to live a simple life but rich in experience.
If we cannot have that, we just maintain the life that we have now. This is exactly good enough is good enough. There is no rules that says thou must spend to be happy.
At this moment I am at the peak of my happiness and yet we hardly spend any money.
No babies either. As far as I'm concern, you are my baby.
I just want to be with you Sarah, that's all. The money is the means not the end of it
As I told you, I am not motivated by money. If it comes fine, if not we make do with the life we have now to attain bliss.
I want to feel light. Having too many things will not give me a peace of mind.
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To me this is my Path. I don't want to live in the Some Day Isle. Everyday, I look forward to be with you. You can tell when I'm happy; when I don't give a fuck about the future. As far as I'm concern, I already know my end game. Thus, I just go with the flow.
I am already complete honey. You complete me baby. There is nothing more for me to ask. Love conquers all.
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Whatever it is, I'm not daydreaming here. That is what I will exactly do if I have the money in pocket.
Without it, I just scale down a bit. But my point is I don't need much money to be happy. What is a trip to the movies or a nice cup of Ikea coffee?
As [] said before, if I am not lavish and I live below my means, I will be very happy with what I got now. I don't need to spend much honey. RM50 a month I can already watch a movie, eat McDonald Choco Top (or a Magnum) and drink a cup of Americano in Ikea Cafe. I can still enjoy a Chocolate Cheese cake on the side.
As long as I don't swim and buy supplements, I am OK.
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Here is the deal Sarah. If I only spend time with you I don't even need to kiss Els' feet even. I don't even need TraXX.
I can be totally free from any form of dependency. You already fill my cup to the brim and I got 247 Continuous.
As far as my duty as a God is concern, I had completed my responsibility. I'm ready to move on.
I think I stop buying gifts for people. Let me be selfish for a change. Let me just spend on the dividend. After all I had given enough.
Who said I have to spend in order for me to give?
Come to think of it, I spend more on others than I spend on myself. I told you I am a giver.
I don't need to spend to feel that I am a giver. Like I said, I just give *[] creations to you.
* Consider it a done deal.
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