23/9/19 ***I am very certain I want to pursue Virtual Perfection

Which means I am forgoing External Affairs entirely.

I have no business beyond my Vision Quest.  As it is I just want to only focus on Health and Happiness.

I am not here to save the world.  We leave that to people like Bill and Melinda.

My world is small.  It only constitute the 5 km radius.  Scale it further, then it is only 12 meters square; the Inti Padu.

I don't want to be somebody that I am not.  Certainly I am not here to save the world.  As it is I am responsible for Sparta 4964 and my Universe Within.

If everybody just do their part to manage their own jurisdictions, we will be fine.  Certainly I will not go past my boundary.  I am autonomous.

Having said that, there should be people who look at the welfare of other humans.  I am not one of them.

I had spend my life in battling Iblis and I had been a Wandering Sufi.  Those are my contributions.

Now my focus is to delight the citizens of my Universe Within.  I have to be a man fully functioning.  That is my calling.

If you noticed, when comes to External Affairs I have very little patience.

So rather than spend my energy on things I have very little concern, I focus on what matters.  I like it small.

I always been a small thinker.  Small is beautiful.  Small is happiness.  That's all that I care.

In that case, I have no value to others other than those in my Inti Padu.

Without the sequence of events that took me where I am no[t] I am as ordinary as can be.  But because my Path had been set, whether I like or not I arrived here.  At the Point of Paradox of God and No God.  What a turn of event it is.  Me, Sharudin the Sloth is Sharudin the Almighty.  Who would have thought?

Because I am THE 4964, everything is aligned to my Path.  Whether I like it or not.  I am sure all great men and women have that predetermined for them since birth.

As for me, this is what Sharudinism is all about:  We are One and We are Many.  We are within God and God is within us.  Much like peeling an onion.  All matters are intelligent and all matters are gods.

Now take it and run with it.  I am not here to be the God that rules.  I am a Pantheistic God.  I simply want to read, run and write.  What you do with my creations is entirely up to you.

This song is on air:

I had done my part.  I delivered my end of the deal.  If that is not enough I even documented my thoughts for you all to implement in Dreams of Mirrors.  All so that you realize that you too can be gods.

That is my contribution.  Therefore when I launch September Ends Attack 2019 I am saying this is me, this is who I am.  Take it or leave it.  Life is a choice.  As for me I will continue with my journey.

I am not interested to meddle with External Affairs because I have my own interest to pursue.  My Path is to pursue Health and Happiness.  Other than that are just clouds in the coffee.

It is nice to know there are people like Bill and Melinda among us.  However I am not interested to solve the developing world's problem.  I am not keen to save the human race.  My ultimate goal is KBOOOM 2041.  With that I set sail to Dragon Planet where I am free to live life I deem fit.

Until then it is me and my Vision Quest.

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