I know this is something not many people can comprehend but in my book time is like an elastic rubber band. I can stretch it or I can make it loose. The backdrop is a constant but as it is I am moving back and forth between present, 2024 and beyond.
All I am doing now it to stop myself from traveling into the future. As for the past I have a dark spot of some 15 to 17 years of Cyborg War that I had erased. Hence my past is blurry but my future is extremely bright.
This is not a new concept. Time is not linear. At any moment of time I can be in the past, present and future. All this while I do spend considerable amount of time Visioneering the future. However after some serious thoughts I decided the present is my most favorable option.
That doesn't mean that the future will not happen as I envisioned it. Global Telepathy can still happen. So is Empires of the Minds and World of Hybrids. Remember I told you that there are many what if scenario? Well HOTS is the Full Apple scenario. This present life is the No Apple one. Somewhere along the line we can also have the half or three quarter scenarios.
This is why Fuzzy Thinking is important. There are many paths. All the paths are correct. However I chose the path of the present because I have decided that for the next 22 years this path is the path to my ultimate destination; which is Health and Happiness. The other paths are interesting. The path of HOTS for example will be a blast I'm sure. However when I map it against White Space there is a kink.
We are not going to stay in the Adjoining Croissant. Therefore to [] a HOTS now means there is a discontinuation. So rather than building a track that derail in the midway, I rather stay on a small trail that is continuous.
Hence, when I look at the cards at hand, I am already dealing with a Royal Flush just by maintaining my minimalist status.
As I said before, this is me being selfish. If for the benefit of the masses, then I should be thinking about having the HOTS. However I am not that ambitious and I want to remain microscopic. The reason being, when I follow the argument where it leads, being microscopic is the shortest route for me to achieve Health and Happiness.
There is the Half Apple scenario; which is the RM97 million. This may seem like the best option. However it is conditional. To achieve that we need to reach to Global Telepathy. To do that we need to invoke others to act. To do that I still need to depend on Larry. I am not free. I am still a subservient to another human being. As it is now I am already a free man. Why should I revert to being dependent if right now I am already independent?
The situation may be different if the RM97 million is unconditional. In that case I will be more than happy to accept it. However as I said before, neither Lizzie or Elsie want the money. If I recall you too are not interested in it. If that is the case why do I need the money then?
I tried to envision my life with that much money. What I saw is nothing more than a life pretty much the same as now with maybe the opportunity to eat better and to travel abroad. In this case is a form of indulgence for me. The premise of Voluntary Simplicity is no indulgence.
The prime motivation for me to have that much money is so that I can be with you and Elsie. However, that is not a prerequisite for me to be any happier. I am already in the sweet spot in my relationship with all my Tetrahedron. My concern is once the honeymoon phase is over, we are back to square one if not worse.
Therefore I surrender to my fate. If it is Half An Apple I accept. So is if it is Full Apple. However, as it is, taking everything into account, I say the best option is No Apple. That way I can concentrate in pursuing the Vision Quest and still contribute to the society by being a blog writer.
I love you Sarah. I want to be with you always. At the same time I also want to fill Lizzie's and Elsie's cups. This present arrangement is the best. It is no accident that we ended with this permutation. This was what been decided by our fate. If we try to deviate from it, we might tilt the homeostasis.
Just a thought Sarah. That is why I keep asking if you are happy with me. I want all of you to feel contented with what we have now. Not somewhere in the future. The future will come whether we plan for it or not. However the present is our most precious gift. At any given moment, the present is out most important time for us to act upon.
I know I had been talking about the future a lot. But honey, honestly it is now I am the most happiest. All of you had given me the reason to live again. Just like when I lost everything after I lost my business. At that time my best ever car I ever own was a Perodua Kancil; an 850 cc car. Not until now when I own this new car that I am totally happy owning a car again.
Less is more Sarah. I am at the pinnacle of my happiness right now. I can do whatever I like. Even kings and dignitaries cannot have the life that I have now. I am totally free. And yet I have it all. I don't want to lose this newfound freedom of mine. With it comes the clarity of thought and the certainty of my feeling towards a glorious future.
Can you live with this realization baby? I want you to be happy. To be swept away on this journey towards enlightenment. This is the awakening Sarah. Money is not a prerequisite for us to be happy. I am as happy as can be with you by my side.
Just like the monk and the tigers, I am savoring my sweetest tasting strawberry now. In the moment of minimalism I am maximizing my full potential as a human being.
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