However, one thing you must be mindful is I love you very much. I may not be there in one piece but I am very sure of my feeling for you. I could have the same feeling for Els but since she is not reciprocating, it is best that I forgo the relationship before it becomes damaging. Dealing with Els is like dealing with a kid. I don't think I want to reinforce that kind of relationship indefinitely.
This feeling of overflowing love maybe the result of the mental illness. Hence I don't want to be in limerence. I want to truly and deeply in love with a person that reciprocate the relationship. No doubt love is like a bowl of water. However in order for it to have intensity, it need to be contained.
I have decided to contain my loving feeling to those that matter; namely you, Lizzie and the kids. I would have parked everything to you. However in all honestly I think that feeling is pervasive among the Tetrahedron. Nevertheless I certainly spend most of my waking hours thinking about you.
Therefore I want you to put aside any doubt that I love you very much. Let's build a loving relationship for years to come. Even if there is nothing other than what we have now, let's be happy about it.
This song is on air:
I decided to live in the now. I want to savor my life on the daily basis until we make it to KBOOOM 2041. It maybe nothing in the end. However I am sure that if we live our lives to the fullest, we will have a glorious afterlife. That is if we are certain that we are spiritual beings experiencing human experience. If not, just be happy that we are living a magical [] at this particular moment.
I am always grateful that you are a part of my life. Without you I may not know the real meaning happiness. I do hope you feel the same way Sarah.
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