Come to think of it SNAP VANISH feels good. If I can SNAP VANISH I can also RIP CORD. Lets not cross the bridge before it's time. The point is much like quitting cigarettes, making the decision was hard but the actual action is certain bearable.
I sleep better and I have more control of my time. Before this, I didn't SNAP VANISH because I perceived the action as painful for me and for her. The truth of the matter nothing is worse than quitting cigarettes. If I can quit cigarettes I can definitely SNAP VANISH.
SNAP VANISH is the only way to get rid of any form of dependency. It is the prerequisite to RIP CORD. I let the limerence pass before I RIP CORD like what I did with Azzue.
This unlikely relationship of the fox and the rabbit will probably last for 2 years. I had laid out my road map (until the Swiss Army Rambler in 2020). By 2021 I need a more solid projection ahead.
What shall it be? Once the trust is established, I should focus on preserving the relationship.
7 Ways to Build Trust in a Relationship
- Say what you mean, and mean what you say.
- Be vulnerable — gradually.
- Remember the role of respect.
- Give the benefit of the doubt.
- Express your feelings functionally, especially when it's tough.
- Take a risk together.
- Be willing to give as well as receive.
Rightfully by then I should make an attempt to meet her. However 2021 i[t] when Lizzie retires. Therefore by then I should be more committed to Lizzie and to my pursuit of Virtual Perfection.
2020 is a good marker. I don't want to be hooked to Els like I am hooked to the 3 Cs. At present I actually traded one addiction over another. I cannot do that. I need to be free from all forms of addiction. This SNAP VANISH is really good. I am now disassociated from the issue at hand.
I got to start living my life. Now what I do is burrowing myself in the CCC. I should set course for my ultimate destination:
- Health and Happiness
- Thin and Fast
- Weight and Inflammation
- Diet and exercise
- ABILITY TO WITHSTAND HUNGER
I had the rich man's disease. I eat too much and I don't move that often.
My consolation is I no longer dependent on the 3 Cs. However my addiction to Els is equally bad. She consumes me.
I need a timeline. End of next year I RIP CORD.
What is the plan then? Do I create dependency by topping my Emotional Bank Account or do I slowly withdraw my interest?
As I mentioned sometime back, I need to turn the situation from a savings accounts into a unit trust. That means I got to have a sizable deposit for me to enjoy a healthy interest. A savings account won't cut it. I don't think I want a daily maintenance. Sufficient if I create a sense of emotional security by making several large deposits and enjoy the interest on periodic basis.
Therefore for next year I just spent on major purchases and then in 2021 I simply reap the interest.
- Casio Watch
- Miss Dior Perfume
- Victorinox Rambler
All the items are meant to last for at least for 5 years.
With Lizzie retiring I have less freedom to go out and fool around.
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The gout is gone within 1 day, that is the fastest recovery so far. However the haze is still bad.
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I need to get the right perspective on my life. I cannot simply rot like a deadwood. At the very least I should make the effort to lose 30 kg. That had always been my aspiration. I should diet and exercise now that EVERYTHING IS SAILING SMOOTHLY.
I think what matters is I have to be emotionally stable to move with certainty. Much like when I was experiencing Unconditional Love with Sarah.
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