Friday, 6 September 2019

6/9/19 ***The haze is bad

I have to stay indoors.

This 3 weeks SNAP VANISH is to test whether I am really in love with Els or is it limerence.  Also to see whether she has feelings for me.

Within this 2 days I feel much relaxed not dealing with massive emotional turbulence.  I want to be kind to Lizzie who had sacrificed much.  So as much as possible beginning now I want to settle any outstanding debt I have namely the house and my personal loan to her.

Later will I think of dealing with Inland Revenue.  That is if I want to travel overseas.  Lizzie is thinking of paying in installment.  Munek is trying to get IRD to let me travel because I have an excuse of unable to work.

Personally I am happy not having to go anywhere.  This is my White Space.  So traveling is not my priority.  I had traveled much in my younger days.  Furthermore I am not comfortable with strangers and strange land.  Heck, I don't even travel to KL.  Let alone going abroad.

I really like it here.  As long as I get to eat my favorite food I'm OK.

I need to live in gratitude to be happy.

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I will pursue a life as a Cleaner.  That means I will live a clean life and free from debt, worry and illness (DWI).  I need to only focus on basic necessity.

For example this is what I plan to do:

  • RM50 petty cash
  • RM50 maverick purchase
  • RM200 trust fund
No more lending money.  I think I stop taking supplements too.  I eat clean.  Simply minimize spending.  I continue with Moringa, Butter and MCT Oil.

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